Friday, March 20, 2009 . 12:05 AM

DIVINE INTERVENTION

HERES a phrase that i like to surface out. what does it mean? actions by those beyond the clouds? hmm.. if it were real would it be good or bad? if its real then i have something to blame for all those freak coincidence of misfortune. all those times when an intangible force seem to form this wall in front of my path. preventing me from achieving success or just enjoying simple pleasures.. if it is real, if someone is up there, beyond the clouds screwing around with my life... then dude, one big middle finger coming up your ass when i get to you..

THAT aside, i chanced upon this anime called " Kyo no go no ni " translates to Today in Class 5-2.. just the title gave me this nostalgic feel.. coincidentally, 5-2 was my class.. though it was called 5N2 instead of 5-2.. but then wheres the difference? LOL. the serial in genre is comedy and slice of life.. and the OAV is ecchi and comedy.. hmmm.. which one should i watch.. i think the answer is pretty obvious LOL. 5N2.. fond memories.. though a broken and scattered group of people now.. how sad. i suppose its too far fetched to wish such relationships can be the same as that in the anime.. or maybe even childish to think that way.

DAMN.. have i ever mentioned that weekends go by in a blink of an eye? "A" blink of an eye.. i would expect this block leave of 9 days to go by in at least 5 blinks.. but i believe i've only blinked twice... and its friday WTF!?!? whatever... so tomorrow i'm getting my posting.. why cant they do it online.. then i have to fly down to gedong again just to take that letter designating me to the next level of HELL LOLOL. oh and i met my supervisor from when i worked at mount faber.. met Julian. lol.. serving reservist.. wonder how old is he.. the world is really that small... him from armor too?

SUCH a sad life.. one week of break and i did nothing.. stay at home com-ing and piano-ing.. how sickening.. family is busy... some school some attachment and work.. nothing from platoon mates.. ah who am i kidding.. i'm not part of the gang anymore anyway.. besides i don't want to associate myself with those people.. save a few.. countable with one hand. good people are hard to come by. like finding a quartz(?) of diamond in a mountain of coal. sometimes being a loner has its benefits. sweet lonliness LOL.

Sunday, March 15, 2009 . 12:24 PM

I'VE been waiting for this for so damn long...

P.O.P it has finally came and gone. i'm delighted out of my pants that BMT is over. 3 months down, 21 more to go. seems like yesterday that was enlistment day. felt like yesterday when i first met my sergeants and sir. i won't lie about it, but it has been a tremendously fun 3 months i've had, though with some spills here and there. i just feel so destroyed that i couldn't be out there, on that parade square, marching proudly. its depressing.. seeing everyone on such a joyous occasion that i cant be there too. struggled through BMT and unable to pass out with pride. its painful.. T.T

THOUGH i am happy about passing out. there is still within me a part thats sad. sad about leaving 46 SAR. my home for the past 3 months. i've made half a handful of friends, unfortunately, but gladly, no enemies. 46 SAR Attila Platoon 4, will be a place i'll miss dearly. sometimes, you just don't enjoy what you have at the moment. while serving the 3 months BMT i felt miserable. a small part due to training, a larger part due to people. i always felt unhappy of what was around me, and i never really noticed and appreciated the fun and enjoyable moments. times like IFC urban, IPPT, Range..

THERE are people i wish to thank, for keeping me company, and giving me that morale boost when i needed it most. especially my sergeants and sir. its a pity i cant uphold the SAR motto 'once armour, always armour'.

WELL, i guess thats the end of the BMT chapter of my life..

Saturday, March 7, 2009 . 4:33 PM

NEXT week is P.O.P

NEXT friday to be exact. OMFG i cant believe 3 months just swung by so quickly. time really flies. and i hope it flies all the way for 21 more months. lots of talk about who'll be posted out and who staying. i personally don't think i can cope with the "staying" part. honestly speaking... my right hand is utterly destroyed.

AH yes.. field camp. private and confidential. won't elaborate much on it (wait.. i mean, cant elaborate) one thing i want to point out is that i destroyed my right wrist during field camp. pulling and tugging that field pack, and worst of all, digging that freaking shellscrape. yes, my hand is a goner. thanks a lot to sir and sergeant who helped me dig almost all of it.. but what the hell, i didn't dig much and my hand was screwed so bad already.. wonder what would have become of it if i had done the whole thing alone.. not to mention covering it up.. must give thanks again to sergeant. don't know what awaits me in the future with this handicap.

MOM's been telling me that feeling breathless when i wake up is a very bad sign that some illness is coming/has come. die.. LOL. i'm always breathless in the morning after waking up. severely to be precise. sometimes i can almost choke and stop breathing during water parade in the morning. scared scared. LOL. no problemo.. me no fear death. wtf. actually i do. well technically, i fear death NOW. cos i don't want to die yet. but when the time comes.. i fear nothing MUAHAHA. big talk from me. LOL. nonsense.