Tuesday, January 27, 2009 . 2:10 PM

ok first of all, happy new year to all... wishing everyone a happy, prosperous and fruitful year ahead. hope everyone huat ah.

but new year for me has been.. pretty empty. in a blink of an eye, its book in again. life of an NS puppet is just fucked up. didnt even have that festive mood. and as usual.. book in day is always depressing. so depressing sometimes i just feel like crying. knowing my life is being wasted is such a farked up feeling.

don't know whats going on recently.. but i've been finding myself short of breath and panting heavily while doing small effort work.. like hanging out laundry. had a severe chest pain last night... wonder how long will i last in that forsaken place. i don't want to die. not now, not in there. i want to die happy and accomplished.. which means i still have a very long way to go.

NS is murder i say. medical officers are the murderers. report chest pains twice and they did nothing. permanent injury on the wrist and they give me cream.. how cute.

Care for Soldiers.. *pfft* fuck you all.

Sunday, January 18, 2009 . 9:12 AM

damn.. i used to complain how life sucked when i had nothing to do.. how ironic. now i wishing for those days of nothingness to come back. NS life suck balls man. geez.. i thought i'd be in for a good 2 years of active life. but this just sucked my balls harder.

how strange.. i find the commanders a lot more friendly than platoon mates. i can communicate better with the sec coms a lot better than platoon mates. same wavelength as them? perhaps.. people are already labeling me ankat kia. well... not like it bothers me. like i said, i hate my platoon.

seriously nothing to talk about here.. i thought life would be more interesting after enlistment.. but its still as dull, if not even worse. life is rolling down a steep and rocky hill and i'm constantly trying to catch something to stop the fall.. but it seems all in vain. LIFE SUCKS SIA