Saturday, November 22, 2008 . 2:49 AM

lets kick it back, old school.

playstation 1. i've been playing some games from this old junk. but i don't have a playstation, just an emulator for the com. its hard to imagine something this old can still give so much entertainment. i've thrown cabal aside for this oldie. just completed Breath of Fire IV recently. its the fourth time i've played that game but its the first time i completed it LOL. and the thing is i never got sick of it. like i've said before, i love games of this sort. games like final fantasy, breath of fire, whatever genre its called. but of course its the story that i'm playing for and not entirely the gameplay itself. playing these games is like watching a show. just that you get to bring the story along as it goes. interactive is it called? only difference is that you sometimes get one too many fights. games like these host some of the best music.. like Final Fantasy. its got the best game OSTs i've ever heard. hail Nobuo Uematsu. Aeris theme, Seal of the Wind.. lovely music.

but i suppose not all are good, i tried final fantasy 8 recently and i got sick of it after a while. the story was kinda dumb and indecisive. graphic was.. poorer than FF7. and the gameplay was like horrible. the magic assigning system is simply rotten. tutorial tells me to do this and when i try it, it doesn't work. sweet.

enough of that, FF9, which i'm occupied with now, is so much better in all aspects. plus, the story is nice. which is like the most important thing.

look, reduced to blog about games.. how pathetic.

i'm lonely. i'm almost friendless.. or do i even have friends, i sometimes wonder. the word 'friend' is no longer the most precious word to me anymore. i used to value friends more than anyone else. perhaps i was blind. i used to love them so much. i gave my all when they needed help. i tried my best to be there when they needed someone. and i thought they did the same for me. wrong. none of them cared. perhaps spared a few hollow words of console. nothing more. friends.. they are but fleeting sentiments. they mean nothing in the long run. some may just hook on to you when they need you, suck you of all your kindness and cast you aside when they no longer need you as i have experienced many times. many times have i been fooled by such illusions of happiness.

emoism.
farking emo is the above paragraph. but all too true it is. sobs. i'm like a freaking loner now. but i'm not complaining. in fact, i kinda like it. i just need to go out a lot more instead of sitting at home. Loner > home loner. gotta get used to getting out of the house without anyone's company. fark and i'm going ns soon. gotta mix with those treacherous people. hmm.. i've grown to hate mixing with people. ESPECIALLY strangers. they all look untrustworthy to me. no choice though. i cant get through ns alone. i don't think i want any friends in there. as i've heard from my cousin what sort of creatures i'll be mixing with in there. and to think its MONO intake. its worst. but then again, no one would lend a hand if i don't mix with them.. but then again, not as if they would even if you did mix around. and of course, i'll bet almost all of them in there are just waiting to stab in the spine. humans... *tsk* i hate humans. i hate people. half demon for the win.

LOL WTF XD