Thursday, October 16, 2008 . 5:33 AM

aah i'm back to this no life routine again. everyday at home do nothing.

SOBS

you know, it wouldn't be so bad if i just died now, since theres nothing to life now. but of course one cant die anytime he wants to. and i dont think i want to die yet. now poly has started its semester again.. less people will be free. no one is free to go hang out. home loner i shall be once again.. MUAHAHAHA.

too late to be taking any enrichment activities.. yet again i fail to accomplish what i aimed to do. i should have retook my maths science english and literature paper this year. i really should have. it would have saved me 2 years ITE after NS. or 1 year rataking those subjects after NS. oh why oh why has it turned out this way... slit wrist is what i wish to do now...

i've made a grave mistake in sec 4 and sec 5. i've mixed with the wrong people. i should have went with the study people instead. i'm not blaming the people i hung out with. they were the ones that made my sec school life so wonderful. who i blame is myself for my inability to see whats right and make the best decisions. i had great fun since sec 4. and i'm paying the price now. pity the principal refused to take retainees due to reputation. the school is already in shambles.. what rep is there left? but whatever.

i'm feeling the impact of my... ignorant past. and i've really regretted. all said by friends back then now ring in my ears... as i've once said:

"these hands of mine shall ferry me to my grave"

how right i was. these very hands of mine have steered me into folly. the value of my life now is next to nothing. hope all changes soon.

OMG EMO!!!

ok i was really bored.. so i wrote these emo stuff. but i really mean what i said above. sobs. dam sadded...

wow its 6am now. people are going to school.. i can hear schoolbuses.. haha. oh, just a few hours ago i witnessed something i'll never forget. its a.. how should i phrase it... ah yes, a Lunar Rainbow. a rainbow ran across the moon! simply spectacular. i was mezmerized by the sheer beauty of it. its a full moon and as if thats not pretty enough, a rainbow to go with it! amazing. hope its a sign that life will get better. hahaha! lame+emo = omg retard