Friday, May 30, 2008 . 9:52 PM

did i say i gave up gaming? well thats quite a lie. it would be appropriate to say that i've given up on most of the games. such as cabal and C&C3KW. I've been staring most of the time. been doing weights and working out. completed Hoshizora No Waltz on the piano, and playing a hell lot of DOTA, with AI.

i think i'll record Aeris theme soon. though i'm still miles from a perfect play, i'll just record it. perhaps it may possess some comical value, seeing the way mistakes disrupt my play. hopefully a miracle will help me get a perfect record. but first and most importantly, batteries!! i accept all kinds of batteries in AA size via all methods of delivery or cash. *wink*

took some time out yesterday to re-watch Vandread. me love it! me love Meia! will finish the Second Stage on sunday. also caught Body Transfer. which is hentai so i shan't mention any further about it.


in order to be strong, we must prove our existence.


Saturday, May 31, 1:18 A.M.

Tuesday, May 27, 2008 . 1:24 AM

life must be at its all time low now. i seriously must find something good to do soon. i'm going to die from this nothingness. its gotten worse. i've given up on gaming. surfing the net can only quench the thirst for entertainment temporarily. i simply stare at the screen without doing anything at times. this could get dangerous. its such void of activities that propel one's desire to try something on the other side of the law. namely drugs. but of course i wouldn't go that far. i can't imagine myself shooting like 2 to 3 times a day.. but who can tell?

i'll give myself 2 options. speak japanese, or draw manga. doubt it would be easy.. since i can only draw stickman now, and i'm no good at picking up a new language at all. which drains the fuel for motivation. i should give it a try though..

i'm going crazy. i need something to do or i'll go mad.. permanently.


Tuesday, May 27, 1:24 A.M.

Monday, May 26, 2008 . 2:58 AM

i guess heavier types of music just don't suit me well. light, gentle, soothing.. i still prefer that. so i changed the songs on the imeem again.

can't get over the song from TokiKake.. the lyrics is simply beautiful. just piano and voice. its the type i love the most. well i don't mind performing these songs. i can find the sheets for piano and voice. anyone wanna sing? haha. female only please. i can do Garnet and Kimi Ga Nozomu Eien.

cycling was super fun. well it would have been perfect.. if not for the brutal abrasion, getting lost and some misleading at the end. riding at the runway was not too bad. wouldn't have minded doing the endurance. didn't even feel a bit tired after 15 km. ah that was crap. intended to do 6 km but ended up doing 15. hilarious.

whole body aching. butt rotting, can barely walk properly.. the feeling of satisfaction indeed!


Monday, May 26, 3:47 A.M.

Saturday, May 24, 2008 . 3:43 AM

Title: Toki Wo Kakeru Shoujo
Genre: drama, romance, science-fiction
Episodes: movie
My Rating: ☆☆☆☆☆☆










wasn't ready to turn in for the night yet, so i decided to watch this anime movie. well, for verdict, i really am at a lost for words. really there is simply no word in the dictionary that can praise this movie. this makes spirited away look so puny. thats my verdict.. i'd rate this 11/10 if it was logical. made me laugh, made me cry, made me feel almost as though i'm right there. i almost cried (again) at the ending song. the lyrics was simply.... *opens mouth but nothing comes out* so there you go. this is a must watch. well i consider myself a late watcher but those who have not watched this and intend to, make time for it. you can't possibly miss this.

yesterday evening was rather a disappointment. firstly, intention of dining at Sakae sushi was ruined when we found out that harbour front outlet does not cater buffet for dinner. sushi tei had an outrageously long queue so we missed it too. settled for pastamania and it was simply revolting. perhaps it was a mistake of choice. both food and beverage were simply un-swallowable. apologies for usage of incorrect english. plans to go to Harry's for a drink was also put aside. went to the IT shops to look for Call of Duty 3 as bro wanted it. wanted to buy an external hard disk but couldn't make up my mind. in the end we spent hours doing nothing at vivo. pity.. i was looking forward to a nice glass of Harry's cocktail. well, i guess i'll just settle it myself. i'll go pop my e-33 now and enjoy. gotta try put the events in that movie out of my head or i'll go into depression again. weird huh.

cry, let it out, who said it was wrong to cry..


Saturday, May 24, 4:03 A.M.

Monday, May 19, 2008 . 2:53 PM

Title: Kaze No Stigma
Genre: action, comedy, romance, drama
Episodes: 24
My Rating:☆☆☆☆☆








ah.. Kaze No Stigma. what a great anime. love it to bits. the comedy is rather frequent, which mixes together with the romance. so that makes it something like school rumble? comical romance i believe. but around the ending few episodes it got really sad. couldn't keep my eyes dry. someone dear always has to die.. *sob* Tsuo Rin... T.T cry baby? screw you. its pretty complicated at the end though. and i have to add, it hasn't ended yet. there had better be a sequel. can't just let me fantasize what happens to Kazuma and Lapis.. how evil of the director. But all in all, Kaze No Stigma is a wonderful anime. should watch if you have the time. and the ending theme rocks too. (Hitokiri No Sora) its the first song on the imeem playlist.


time to get a new bike. went riding with kun and ward on sat and almost got killed. in the end i was sent home with a crippled bike without front breaks, a twisted front suspension, a tire near bursting, and a badly dented tire rim that had a very freaky wobble. just wasnt my day. and i had a nice bruise on my leg.


how would you feel, if something happened to the one you hold dear. that you couldn't protect her, and to have her die right in front of your very eyes.
and how would you feel, if you found out that her very last thought was " i want to kill you... "


Monday, May 19, 3:46 P.M.

Saturday, May 17, 2008 . 2:09 AM

wait. everyone waits for something. everyday, theres something to wait for. wonder how much precious time is lost in waiting. its time wasted if one does nothing during the wait. in fact, the number of productive things to do while waiting for something... can be counted with fingers. as for me, i'm waiting to leave home. cycling at 6:30 is the event. so i'm just blogging while waiting. i cant say this is productive, but its much better than doing other things. and you ask, why not sleep? for fear of the inability to awaken.

gangs. what exactly is the definition of 'gang'. and how do we define gangsters. i have no idea what the dictionary definition is, and i dont intend to find out. my own definitions and views would suffice. definition of gang: a group formed by a bunch of people who loves creating trouble, loves violence, loves picking on the weak, and are absolute cowards without a trace of, as we call it, 'balls'. gangsters are weaklings to begin with. why else would they want to be in groups. weak individuals that cause humanity trouble as a group. strip them of their communications devices and pick them out one by one. they'll probably wet their pants before you lay a finger on them. thats just the nature of such... lower lifeforms. such creatures don't deserve the label 'humans'. but then again, 'human' isn't such a wonderful label itself. such a pity, the most intelligent beings on this planet are also the dumbest.

why am i typing all these you may ask. like i said, i prefer doing something while awaiting something. voicing out the stuff swirling in my puny little mind was a fun thing to do and is a lot better than doing nothing which is just a bloody waste of time. at least i am able to entertain people with my thoughts, although i'm starting to think that they are not entertaining at all.

by the way my dear readers, i've changed the songs on my playlist. if you have the time do listen to them, their pretty good. just some introduction.


Saturday, 17 May, 3:10 A.M.

Friday, May 16, 2008 . 2:09 PM

damn i'm blown. pissed to the toes. you know, there are a few things that make me burn. like watching an anime half way to find that the following episodes are problematic beyond audience. which is exactly the situation here. was happily watching Kaze No Stigma yesterday until at episode 15, the visual started jerking non stop. and it follows all the way to 24! blast it. now the flow is broken, i probably have to re-watch. that is, after i download again, by a different fansub. hopefully this fansub (shinsen-subs) has quality in their videos.

haven't been playing the piano hard enough. not literally of course. i think i'm still far from mastering any of the songs that i currently play. so i suppose i'll have to extend the aim dates. or if you guys want to see how pathetic i play these songs do let me know and i'll try to record a video of my current standard and show to you people what noob i am xD

the decision has been made! i'm going to shave! front page news! reason behind this is not because i was asked to shave, not due to the fact that i'm going ns and i want to shave to know how it feels either. i want to shave because my hair is like completely out of shape now. makes my head look like a pile of rocks. i haven't decided when i want to do it. maybe right after i post this?

i just love fantasy... if fantasy and reality fused, i'd be a half demon. so i can tear off the heads of those damn malayu pricks that pick fights downstairs.


Friday, May 16, 2:51 P.M.

Wednesday, May 14, 2008 . 3:21 PM

the days now are getting so monotonous. its practically the same thing again and again and again every single day. wake up at lunch time, eat, play com and piano, eat play com and sleep. sometimes if i get tired of the com i just go back to sleep after lunch.

i find it strange that i have this craving for school. wonder what the hell makes me want to go to school. maybe its because everyones at school and i'm here at home doing nothing at all. this intense boredom can really make a person go mad. theres completely nothing to do. maybe i should start counting my hair. keep a record of the number of strands and track how many of them fall everyday. sounds fun...

been playing diablo 2 again recently. and as usual its boring to play a character from level 1 so i just created a level 33 at act 5. this is what makes the game a lot more boring really. oh what the hell am i talking bout. these are symptoms of over boredom i think. perhaps.


Wednesday, May 14, 3:31 P.M.

Thursday, May 8, 2008 . 1:49 AM

went to catch Ironman yesterday.

woke up around 1 for lunch. read some newspaper after that, then hit the zebra and played some com. typical things to do to kill off time. went down to JE and met up with my bros. had dinner at LJS and caught the movie Ironman.

my views on the movie. i am rather disappointed. i felt that this movie wasn't as good as all the talks about it. there wasn't enough exposure on the suit itself. in other words, there weren't enough scenes where Stark flies around in his suit fighting off villains or just flying around for fun. but overall its still a pretty good movie. thats all i have to say. and i suppose there will be an Ironman 2, after watching that scene with Samuel L Jackson after all the credits. well at least theres something to look forward to.

that, basically, was what i did yesterday. nothing else. and i received the letter for medical checkup for NS. seems like i'm due on 02 july for that checkup. wonder why is it so late. well perhaps the later the better? i'm starting to take a liking for red wine.. my my, i really am drinking a lot of alcohol.


Thursday, May 08, 2:34 A.M.

Wednesday, May 7, 2008 . 1:29 AM

been a while since i last posted. haven't done anything productive so far.

i'm starting to think that going to NS is actually quite a good thing to choose. well for me, that gives me 2 more years to think about what i want to do with this screwed up life. so far, i haven't really fixed down on anything i want to do in the future. so NS will give me more time to decide. another thing is that, when i'm out of NS, i can just study and play without a care about going to tekong anymore. and i can get to what i want to do straight after studies. example if i make it to MMA at NP, when i graduate i can go straight to work in that field. no 2 years delay. probably forget all the stuff after NS. so i guess thats some good enough reason to enter NS first.

its getting more and more boring as each day passes. yet somehow i wish it would be this way forever. strange, and ironic how the human mind behaves. aah yes, humans. weak and irresponsible creatures we are. bringing destruction to the very land we dwell upon, yet refusing to amend our folly. such horrid little weaklings we are.


Wednesday, May 07, 5:16 A.M.

Friday, May 2, 2008 . 2:34 AM

been drinking a lot these few days.. since last sunday, i had about 2.5liters of beer, a can of grape wine, a bottle of e-33 and a Harry's cocktail. am i becoming alcoholic? nope, not a all. i don't get spasms when i don't get alcohol. haha. been pretty darn depressed for the past few days. one reason is sort of lame, depression due to anime. haha, go ahead, laugh. look! i'm laughing too! "..l.." i keep thinking about Clare(someone from Claymore). the more i think, the more i go into a daze.. which people often identify as ' emo ' or ' daydream '. screw those people. lol. well, the other, and more dominant reason is that i'm not studying. the fact that theres no school for me to wake up early to, is just down right depressing. and thus the reason behind the amounts of alcohol consumed.

was out with my bros and justin yesterday. justin and bro took turns driving and i must say, thats some quality driving, though i freaked out at least once. but it wasn't entertaining. wasted a good chance to catch a movie. we basically ran out of ideas on activities. so i killed of my time at the arcade when i could have laughed my nuts off at the screens. went to meet kun and ward around 6.30. had buffet at pariss and i seriously think that it was not worth the 45 bucks. food was slightly above average, but variety is just horrible. didn't know what to eat after a few rounds of scooping. went to Harry's after dinner for a drink. had their special ' Dirty Harry ' which was really good. vodka with lychee liqueur and lime. kun had something a little too strong. haha. and hence concludes my thursday.

fucking depressed. the word here is fucking. FUCKING depressed.

i love Danzai No Hana! my favorite song now! both rock and ballad!


Friday, May 02, 3:04 A.M.