Friday, February 29, 2008 . 12:05 AM

boy, i just realized how lifeless i am. hmm, define my life. whats the definition of my life. does it even have one? indeed, you cant define my life, cos i ain't got one.

so what exactly do i do that makes me a lifeless person? lets see, waking up way past noon, confine myself to my room and basically just stare at the com (hentai) and press the piano. ah yes, piano, isn't that a rather productive activity? not exactly if you see it through my perspective. i'm not going anywhere with the piano, as in, no improvements. would that be productive? i wonder..

so i've sort of imprisoned myself to my home. i don't leave unless someone asks me out which, unfortunately is pretty darn rare. i'm not that known i suppose and not very liked by people whom i know. well that was a rather obvious comment. who would like a lifeless person?

right, i've stated before on this god forsaken blog (mind you this god is my imagination) the things i would like to have accomplished this year. lets recap, i talked about picking up japanese, getting a job, private Os, learn to draw some basic manga. well its end of february and... none of these were put into action. even Os! believe it or not i've not yet signed up for private O courses. hey CMPB take me! yoohoo~.. just what exactly am i thinking.

well i'm beginning to think that i'm defeating the purpose of having this blog. its become a place where i come to reflect on myself, to punch out my thoughts in beautiful texts. i'm truly shocked that there are still hits on the counter. yes... yess! read my mind! oh gosh, i'm turning into a psychopath.. am i?


all the greatest artists of the world! i summon you! i give you the task of painting my life! oh... wait a minute, i don't have one. alright then! draw me a life and paint it in the most flamboyant ways you can think of!
(ps. correct my english if i may be wrong in any usage of vocabulary)

Sunday, February 24, 2008 . 11:38 PM

i'm going nuts bout piano. same goes for final fantasy. been getting really addicted to final fantasy 7 soundtracks.

i seriously need to adopt a way of playing the piano that is really effective for improvement. i've been playing for 14 years and still at the same level of skill. sad. wonder how ppl get so good. found another person on youtube that is really skilled. 5 years of playing and he's so freaking skilled. i admire, i'm inspired but i still suck.. haha

He Is My Master. de next anime i'm getting. yes it looks great! haha tho its quite ecchi. alot more ecchi than other anime. but de first epi gave me the feel that its going to be a good watch (not cos of de extra boobs and pantsu mind u) de storyline looks good. and de genre is my type. so..... yes i'm looking forward to it ^^. i'm also getting final fantasy 7 advent children and final fantasy 7 last order. hehe looks like i'm getting into final fantasy too.

Friday, February 22, 2008 . 1:40 PM

yesterday, yesterday was yet another class gathering. went to sentosa again. sadly didnt do much there. dip in salt water for a few hours and thats all. after that it was dinner at seoul garden at marina. aah seoul garden. fuking expensive price but mediocre food. oh well. at least theres a small factor of fun eating there. creativity is a plus. hehehehe. aidil's creativity ran wild. maybe he wans to be a mee goreng chef next time. hahaha!

ate too much beef and had little space for others. scallops were freaking good. ate scallops so happily until jie hao screw the soup with ice cream.. no cocktails please. or perhaps it was worth a try. tom yum vanilla scallop. could work. lol. 25 bucks for all you can eat buffet. wonder why the others stopped eating so early. haha looks like we made them wait kinda long. i think we were pretty bad. we screwed aroudn with the cookeries lol. pour ice cream on the fryer. wtf man. lol.

after that we went arcade for a while. i tried playing beatmania and screwed up like mad lol. less than 20 seconds and failed stage. then played drummania. freaking fun. but i still noob hahaha. first time i played drummania. and i think i'll play even more in the future. fun fun fun! lol

Thursday, February 21, 2008 . 2:56 AM

i'm finally home from the 8 days at cambodia. i wouldn't say i enjoyed it very much cos i certainly did not, but neither would i say i hated it. it had ups and downs and to sum it up, i had no regrets going. theres no point talking bout it though. cant be explained with words. oh.. so i spent valentines day at cambodia. big deal. i cant be bothered about love and stuff. just a waste of time.

so i'm back home now. back to the usual routine of life. this life, needs change. i've yet to find the real meaning of life. what is it i am living for, what makes me want to live, sadly, i have no idea. i'm a weird person to such an extent that i dont even understand myself....

i just played final fantasy 7. just finished disc 1. hard for anyone to believe. i kinda T.T a little at the ending part. a game like this has such great impacts. i kinda feel a little like when i watched KGNE. emo a little here and there. keep thinking bout the scenes as if it really happened. its games like these that are worth playing. its just a game to many people. but theres always a story. i play such games not cos its fun, but for the story. just like watching anime. wonder what that makes me.. ' what a retard, just a game and he gets all emo about it. ' perhaps thats what people think of me. well, it wont bother me.

Monday, February 11, 2008 . 1:08 PM

yesterday i went to suntec with with bro'. first time i ate at sakae sushi. didnt eat much cos was afraid of de bill. drank lots of tea though. their tea rox. then we checked out Caesar's. now i've got 3 swords on mind. Sakabato, Masamune and Tensa Zangetsu. time to work hard for it.

i'll be flying off to Cambodia tmr. its a trip that i really dun wanna go. partly cos i have no one of the same rank as me to accompany me. i'm prepared for a very boring 6day vacation.

Thursday, February 7, 2008 . 1:25 AM

just finished watching lucky☆star. hehe. yea man i love this one. just a casual anime. very very nice. funny too. aw but epi 22 almost made me T.T .. the part kanata came back to visit. sobsob... aah well. but this anime really taught me a lot of stuff! haha like which is the head of a chocolate cornet. LOL. but damn it took me 3days to finish it. feels different somehow. i'd rather finish it in one day. momentum must be there lol. ok, i'll put this in the favorites list. cos i love it. duh lol.

Tuesday, February 5, 2008 . 2:31 AM

wow sunday was super! took me kinda long to post bout sunday.

well i was too tired on sunday itself to post anything and went to bed very early. on monday i was too busy watching 'lucky star'. to be precise, i watched it till now. oh by the way, the time zone for my blog is wrong. its actually 3:40 a.m now.

before i begin, i want to tell you that this is an extremely long post so if you're not very interested in reading about my adventure i'd suggest you give this post a miss. thanks.

sunday, i spent the whole day riding with edward and kun. had a horrible breakfast. after meeting them at dover i felt like throwing up and had to go for a shit before heading on. so from dover we went to bukit timah where they had lunch and i had a drink (cos i still felt like throwing up) after that, we headed for bukit timah hill. i was pretty freaked out at first when i saw the sky. so when we reached bukit timah hill, it was drizzling a little. along the way we saw a rifle range, and checked it out for a while. then the rain got heavier so we decided to head on in search of shelter. oh but it was too late. it started storming as we peddled all the way uphill till we found a tiny little shack that could barely fit the 3 of us. but it wasn't much of use anyway since we were already drenched as if we were swimming before. but man the feeling was so horrible. uphill... uphill and my eyes were dying to see the road even out. worst of all my gears were giving problems that i couldn't shift down to gear 1. climbing a hill at gear 2 is just... painful.

so we hid under that pathetic little shack till the rain let up a little. actually it was still rather heavy. riding in heavy rain can get pretty painful. after the shack was mostly downhill. and it sure hurts when the rain hits you when you're going at about 50 to 60 kmph.. especially when it hits your eyes! stupid of me to remove my glasses. so we followed the direction from a ranger we met earlier and... it led us to a dead end. well not exactly a dead end, just a sealed off path. but that path leads to our intended next destination, macritchie reservoir. so we went over the barrier and went into the forest terrain. YES it was forest terrain! from there on, it was rocky, muddy forest trails that were overflowing with rain water. sadly it started raining like mad after we entered the forest terrain.

it was just hardcore. riding through huge pools of water, some which hid ditches. yea i hit one and almost got thrown off my bike. then riding over bumps that were so slippery that it almost sent me eating mud. lots of rocks that shifted as i rode over them, also nearly gave me a mud facial... worst, uphill in this sort of condition!! lots of roots on an incline. i rode over one and lost a lot of momentum which sent me sliding back downhill. but i gotta hand it to you all, that was the definition of real mountain biking. that is what i call FUN! yes! heavy punishments to the bike and the body! we rode like mad through the forest seeing signs that said "macritchie 6.5km" but we never got there i guess. we were kinda lost in the forest due to the inaccuracy of those stupid pointers. so for over an hour we were just riding blindly through the forest until we came out onto tarmac road. after getting our bearings, we headed back into the forest, but we had our directions now of course.

in the end we emerged from the forest and... we we overshot by 2 reservoirs! we came out way over macritchie, even past lower pearce, pierce however you spell it reservoir. i cant remember if it was upper or lower. we popped out somewhere near thomson road. and it was back to civilization and we hit the main road. then we stopped by at a coffeeshop for something hot cos we were freezing cold. and thanks to edward i had iced milo instead of hot milo. thanks for cooling me down. hehe. anyway, after warming up, or getting further chilled... we headed back toward macritchie reservoir via ang mo kio, which was quite a long ride. upon reaching, we headed to the toilet where we tried to warm ourselves up with hand driers. yes we were that cold. then we rode in to the reservoir and sadly, it started raining heavily again. so we turned around and went for shelter. we had a little chat then the rain resided. and so we decided to head home. and we were a LONG way from home.

so we left the reservoir and started riding back and... more rain! this was the heaviest throughout the day. felt like a pinch every time a raindrop hits you. then it got too heavy that we had to stop at a bus stop. then when the rain loosened, we continued. we had a lot of road crossing to do. and the traffic was heavy. not to mention how cold it got on that part. then it was just riding and riding till we reached adam road. kun's bike gave way. mechanical problems lol. his breaks came loose and the chain came out. so we stopped at a hawker center to fix the problem. after that was more riding all the way until we reached kun's area. lucky him. it would take me over an hour more to get home. after kun left, i and edward stopped by another coffeeshop for eats. that was some good popiah we had. then more riding till we reached edward's place. then from there on was just me alone all the way home.

was the best ride of my life and i'd do it again anytime. better still if it storms. in total according to kun, we covered 24km. but i strongly doubt thats our total distance covered. i think we covered more than 50km. whatever it was, it was still the greatest ride. danger? we don't know it. haha. so that wraps this post. if you have read all the way till here, then you're incredible. i wouldn't if i were given such a long post to read. so thanks whoever read this till here. thanks a lot. ^^ cheers to you!

Saturday, February 2, 2008 . 3:17 PM

title: higurashi no naku koro ni

this is the piece i'm TRYING to play now. i must be nuts ^^

sorry josh, used your video on my blog.

i'll try to record my own playings when i'm better at playing piano and of course... i need a camera for that.