Wednesday, January 30, 2008 . 10:20 PM

i'm just bored and awake now. and theres just nothing to do. i've just watched 5 episodes of NSN. dont ask me what NSN is. those people who know me well will know what i'm talking bout. right now theres only one thing i really feel like doing. i wanna play piano. but too bad i live in a public estate. its like 3:40 am now. if i play now i'll get "jibai! tiam la! kan ni na!" hurled at me.

speaking of piano, i have decided that i want to pour as much time as i can spare into piano practice. i kind of know where my standard is now and its just shit. i've got 3 years worth of lessons and knowledge and i believe where my standard is now is just unacceptable. i cant complete a single piece i'm playing now perfectly. screw it man. more time on piano less time on com. if possible no time on com all time on piano.

unfortunately, i have more important things to do. so i'll be squeezing as much time as i can to play the freaking piano. and my piano sucks too. out of tune, sound drags too freaking long when pedal is down, stubborn keys etc. a new piano would be really nice. and an electric piano too. i probably wont have the time to take lessons and its not like i can afford it either. i'll try to contact my old piano teacher from 11 years back. sounds ridiculous. at least theres this book online that might help me on my own. gotta thank josh for letting me know bout it. i've been wondering a lot nowadays. i really dont know what to do with my life. i've practically ruined 17 years. the best 17 years to become someone special. somehow i just cant forgive myself for that. thats one thing. i have completely no idea for the future. those dumb plans i laid down back then were either too far-fetched or ruined by myself. so tired.

there are 3 things i would like to do now. learn japanese language, learn to draw manga and find a job. of course its just my mind thinking all these things.. i probably wont even start on any of those this year. yes i'm just so freaking laid back. so disappointed with myself.

so i've screwed my o lvls. now comes the question if i'll be allowed deferment from ns for private studies. life is suppose to be great now. but i'm getting tired of it. really tired.

ah screw the emo thinking... had a few games of cnc with edward today. 2v2 is really fun. we owned and got owned. just realized i shouldn't be patient sometimes. patience can sometimes lead to total destruction as i've experienced today. the last game today was the best. though i got creamed in 8 minutes... edward owned the other 2. edward so pro. haha.



please bring me to japan and forget to bring me back.

Monday, January 28, 2008 . 1:00 AM

aaahhh.. been watching anime for 2 days straight.. i've jus re-watched Rave. was really worth the time. damn i love that anime. even though its my 2nd time watching, i'm still on the edge of my seat at the exciting parts. and there are quite a few sad scenes almost make me T.T .. and damn when i'm anticipating him to call out the next commandment for the first time.. wow i get goosebumps lol. what this anime seriously SERIOUSLY needs is a sequel. there are still so many fights to be fought, 2 more raves to be collected and 4 more commandments yet to show themselves. damn the first time i watched it was when i was.. sec 1! been waiting pretty long for the sequel. and i'm still waiting... still waiting.

Friday, January 25, 2008 . 2:12 AM

yes of course you guessed it. this a post bout results and stuff. yada yada. i know pretty dam well what all you bastards wanna know. that 1 question dying to escape your mouth. but of course i'm not going to say it here. that would be too brainless. if you wanna know the answer to your shit question, sms me your name, nric number, and the code. if not, forget it. understand!? and i reserve the right to ignore your smses.

so after grabbing the results, we did our final hang out. me and the usual people. for the last time i guess. yep. after that i went home and got changed. then went out with my bro' for dinner. got to JEC pretty late. for dinner we serviced our LJ. well LJS of course. dun get any funny ideas. after that took a walk outside JEC then got a bottle of [e thirty-three] and sat down and chat. that was 1 hellava long chat. heh. from 7+ to 10. i love talking. wonder why people at school always say no talking. why would they deprive you of talking. wait forget how to talk.

so what have i been doing since my last post. nothing much really. been playing alot of piano. i've done azurite, kanashimi no mukou e and now 2/3 through true blue. its a song from an anime called sky girls. yesh. got advice from someone that you can actually improve by just playing songs. hmmm. come to think of it, quite true. so far azurite was a pretty difficult piece that i managed to complete. doubt i could have done that last time. i think i'll try Little Bird from Bokurano for next song.

shag. tomorrow, or rather later, i gotta go extend my passport. freak i went 2 days ago and missed 2 stops. and it took me 20 mins to walk 2 stops back! wtf!? so i jalan jalan back to the ICA building. when i reached it was 4:35 pm. and i got a big " Sorry we are closed " sign to greet me. i was like, wtfh?? then i check the office hours. 5 clock but bloody hell 4:30 the number ticket booth close. then i stone there for a while and decided to make my way home. what a day wasted.

some of you may be thinking " wa this guy completely not affected by the O level results. " well.. nothing much i have to say to those who think like that. for all those who took your time to read till here, thanks. whatever your motive is its another issue. so heres your reward: fletch

Sunday, January 13, 2008 . 11:49 PM

wee had an enjoyable weekend. cousin came over yesterday for football. although it was full of disappointments.. sad Reading lose 3-1 wtf.. then i watched Man Utd vs Newcastle Utd. had beer and chips and cup noodles with the game. but watch until du lan. see that bloody ronaldo play jus piss me off. he's the worst player i ever know man. so what if you got the skills, that stupid cocky face of yours and your beautiful acting... wanna dive also dive a bit more inconspicuous la cb kia.. dive like pussy so obvious diving.. go for diving lessons la for shit sake. and i cant believe the ref bought his wonderful performance.

so that was yesterday.. today woke up at like 12+.. went downstairs for lunch at bout 1+ near 2. came up and play some cs. then after cs bro went to study, cousin played PES08 then i jus played some other games like worms and diner dash.. then dinner was pizza! ate pizza and watch AVP. AVP rocks! AVP2 sucks man. . 1 predator.. come on, we want war! lots of aliens and lots of predators! predators co-op with humans again!

tomorrow time to go back to school.. so sian must wake up at 6 again. naa juz messing around. i think i'll go back to fencing. i need a reason to go back to tanglin... miss that place pretty much. hard to believe i actually hated that shit hole few years back. hmm how do peoples' mentality change so quickly. the sophisticated brain is impossible to understand. then again, its our brain we dont understand... so how do we expect to understand ourselves if we dun even understand our brain? understand? bet u dun. haha wtf am i talking bout. ok so i'll be going back to fencing to have a look around coming tuesday. wonder who will i see. i'm hoping to see some faces when i go back.. hope they havent gone home yet.. hehehe.

wootz. josh's site is back up. wonder what piece should i play next. damn it he's really godly. he jus had 1 year more piano lessons than me and self taught all the way. he's been playing piano for 14 years. same as me but he's like.. nothing to say. i'm so sad. on a lighter note, i manage to play azurite perfect once! woohoo! its an achievement really. but only once. haha. i've got a long way to go. next up will be kanashimi no mukou e. i'm stuck at the chorus.

i've just downloaded an anime movie. the rating seem super. its called erm.. what was it, ah yes ~Kumo no Muko, Yakusoku No Basho~ long title eh? translated it means Beyond the Clouds, Our Promised Place. the storyline looks really interesting. also downloaded ~Kimi Ga Nozomu Eien~ i bought the vcd few years ago. then borrowed it to nazri. never came back. thats not a problem. yo naz, u can keep it. fansubs are way better than ODEX subs. quality is HDTV. wow. so much better than ODEX. i jus love anime about school life, romance, mecha and slice of life. these genres can sometime help you reflect on your life. makes you realize your true meaning in life. school life in japan mus be really nice. in high school that is.

my fav song is officially ~Mouichido Kimi Ni Aitai~!

Thursday, January 10, 2008 . 10:55 PM

woot. finished another anime today. what did i watch.. hmm oh rite, Suzumiya Haruhi No Yuuutsu. first episode was like wtf? u call this anime?? but wow, this anime is super unique. the episodes dont go accordingly. they skip here and there leaving u baffled. then as it nears the end all the pieces come together. super interesting. at first i thought it was the person i DL-ed it from who did not organize the episodes properly. then i found out that the episodes were named 1 to 14 but chronologically, its all messed up.. on purpose. nice style, i like it. so here it is, Suzumiya Haruhi No Yuuutsu, one more to my favorites. and the ending was satisfying. hehe and i had style watching this anime. a can of beer, a bag of cracker and the screen in front of me. hehe thats the life man.

well i promised myself to go sheng siong to get a job today, looks like i broke it.. sad sad. anime wins job. thats just how it is i suppose. Polys, are having their open house soon. i should go check em out. but then, i dont really have much confidence in O lvls... ITE open house anyone?? hehe.

went to suntec with kun and edward yesterday.. first we went makan, then went to various shops. there was 1 particular shop that i was super interested in. the weapons store!! they've got a whole store of 1/1 scale super real slicing edge swords. not to mention that reversed edge katana from kenshin!!! and i got the chance to hold it! wow! they got so many cool stuff there. those 1800s pistols, muskets, zangetsu from bleach and a whole lot more swords! the funniest one i saw was sephiroth's sword from FF7. the sword was like longer than me literally.. damn i jus gota have that reversed edge katana.. 300 bucks!! T.T ngaaa! i gotta have it! dam dam dam!!

yosh!! next anime! Kaze no Stigma! lets go overnight for anime! wooo!!

Tuesday, January 8, 2008 . 6:50 PM

i'm so bored at home.. nothing to play on the com, nothing to play on the piano. wargh.. josh's site is down for so long.. there goes my source anime sheet music.. just got myself the latest Eagles album. Long Road Out Of Eden. also got myself all the FMP songs. come to think of it, all of FMP songs are extremely good. especially FMP TSR ending. ~Mouichido Kimi Ni Aitai~ the melody is damn.. how should i put it, partly sad partly soothing.. hmmm. the lyrics are sweet too. too bad i cant find the piano score for this. would be nice to play this on piano. yea YUI and Mikuni Shimokawa rocks!

i wanna go overseas... so boring down here at singapore. there are a bunch of places i would really like to go. lets see, Norway would be nice, the scenery there is breathtaking.. New Zealand too. i'd also like to visit Easter islands. seen those documentaries on tv, the place looks really nice. huge grass plains under a clear blue sky.. sounds attractive. then theres of course Japan. actually, i was thinking after finishing education to a certain extent, i'd like to move to Japan. been daydreaming about how life would be like in Japan.. hmm. forget everything about singapore.. stupid country, claimed to be a land of opportunities.. i think India has more opportunities.. haha! open curry shop.

aaah i love dreaming... and i love songs that make me T.T muahaha.. wonder why.

Monday, January 7, 2008 . 8:31 PM

weee ok ok lets see, what happened during the last 2 days. saturday was class gathering. destination sentosa. met kun at seah im early for breakfast, then on to harbourfront to meet the rest. since the others were still eating kun and i went off wandering around vivo... then met up with the rest at monorail station. then off to sentosa. what did we do there . . . there was frisbee, swimming, eating. went to merlion, and thats bout all we did at sentosa. surprising how long it took just to do those few things. then it was back to vivo. dinner at banquet then movie at GV. AVP2 for us. after movie we hung around for a pretty long while before taking off. great day. reached home and there as a movie on tv, so watched another movie till 3+ am. shaaaaaaaag!!!

sunday was.. B-O-R-I-N-G. yes thats all bout sunday. nothing happened

toooooooday! woke up like shit late.. stone for a while then went downstairs for food. continued the full metal panic trilogy. TSR TSR TSR. good good goooooooodaaaah! but ending wasnt so. . . sweeeeet... no kissu! why!?? i want kissu! sagara!! kiiiiiiss!! ngaaaa anyway, theres just the OVA left to watch, will be watching it later i guess. so. . . . . what should i watch next? hmmm... i wan the arbalest! gimme gimme gimme!

Wednesday, January 2, 2008 . 7:44 PM

today was the first day of school, the usual, wake up at 6 o clock, went down to bus stop at 7.10.. well not really, i'm jus kidding around. but i gotta hand it to ya, i really miss waking up at 6 and going down to bus stop at 7.10.. maybe i'm a bit weird, like who da hell would miss getting up for school so early.. well, me for one. miss secondary school.. donning that white shirt and gray pants. i'd love to do that again sometime..

woke up today at 2.45.. way past end-of-school bell. and that phrase " lets go makan " still ringing in my head.. damn, do i sound emo? perhaps... perhaps.

well it feels really odd not having to go back to school. theres nothing to do as the days come along. miss all the laughing i had at school.

sitting by the window, starring out at the sky, reminiscing, missing . . . .

Tuesday, January 1, 2008 . 9:13 PM

its a new year.. nothing much has changed really. its always so dull and will always be. i seriously cant get on with life in dull city. i need a LIFE man. need some colors here.

anyways, school reopens tomorrow. for once in 11 years, sound of school doesnt bother me on this day, the last day of the holidays. no need to wake up at 6 o clock, no need to be afraid of being late for anything. but then again, perhaps there would be a need to worry. maybe i would be returning to school later this year. you never know.

putting that aside, theres something to be happy about. that would be striking something off the wish list. yes thats rite. READING JERSEY!! got my very own reading FC home jersey. cost me 90 bucks, which hurt a lot. well it was priced at 110 when i first checked the price with one of the stall assistant. stinkin indian... thought i was easy to scam. "this one? its 90 dollars. oh wait, reading? 110." gimme a break man.. do i look like an easy catch? well no matter. stupid shop. those assistants had attitudes equivalent to baboons. i was talking to my cousin bout how baggy the sleeves were. and he had to interrupt. "people buy jerseys to wear for their team. its not a fashion show or something.." dude, i'm not a player, i'm a fan! it matters if it fits nicely, looks nice on me, and of course, comfortable. asshole.. and i dont recall talking to him. damn baldie. yea so i got my jersey, a little big but nothing else i can do bout it. ' i'm wearing it for the team, who cares if it fits. ' what the hell...

on the other hand, this is the 100th post for the blog. well, some sort of anniversary i suppose. grats to my blog on its 100th post anniversary. something not worth acknowledging in the first place.