Wednesday, November 7, 2007 . 6:37 PM

last night i stayed up to watch anime. finally get to finish another anime. the anime is Busou Renkin. this ones superb. great anime. easily one of my favorites.

i'm getting frustrated. i wonder why failure seem to be all around me. these hands.. good for nothing. play a segment in a piano piece a hundred times. somehow i just cant stop it from jumping to a wrong key on its own accord. strange. almost feels like something else is controlling it. and half of my left hand has been numb for 3 months now. the frustration is immense.

the O levels are over. so i guess i'm no longer a tanglinian anymore? secondary school life. the uniforms, the classrooms, recess, PE, and all those trouble i loved getting into. its all gonna fade away into memory. well. if i could i would never leave secondary school. all that hanging out after school will be just a thing in the past. all those people whom i still wanna see, walking around school. and perhaps some unfortunate souls whom i still long to beat up. i guess the next time i will ever get to experience this again is in my next life time. heres to secondary school life. see you in hell.

now that school is over, i really dont know what i should do. get a job? i should. the type of job would be another problem. see a doctor bout this wretched hand of mine? maybe. how bout taking piano lessons again? i really want to. but would i have the time? and the money? or should i try transcribing a piano piece myself? yea i should try. cant be that bad if its my own creation. lets see. i guess i'll try euphoric field.

depressing times.. everyone's happy and excited now that Os over. why am i feeling so depressed and frustrated? i really dont get it. well like i said, depressing times. solution? get booze! wait till i get my hands on some.. i'm gonna drink till i drop dead. drink till all this sorrows are drowned in a sea of alcohol.